Hit Me Harder

Hit me harder

I dare you

Piss on my corpse

Shove pins down my throat

Don’t even think about saving it for anyone else

Leave every order of pain for me

Don’t care for explanations

Just act

Why think when you can cause the pain I cherish

Apologies are miracles

And miracles don’t happen for me

Drink the blood I shed from your blade

Like red wine or champagne

Illuminate the innocence

Leave only the evil

Take away the myth of love

Let the hurt stay

It’s the only way for me to feel

Fake your smile

Like a beast before the devour

Foreshadow your true intentions

I know no better

Then turn in the next second

Kill what we think is beautiful.

You refuse to kill me

And that speaks for itself

A looming evil that had been there since my beginning

Since my birth

I always hated it

It would never leave

It never tried to make anything better

It hates me

And I hate it

Thanks to you I don’t care

Or think

Or trust

Or love

Or feel

Or wait

I learned from you

That these things are not important things to do

They are insignificant in life

You assured me

Stitch my mouth shut if you can’t stand my voice

I would only rip it open again

Stretching my lips into tearing just for you to hate it.

Cut my hands off if you despise what I write

Because even though you burn the words

They are still there

In my mind

Just as my hatred remains

What is there for me to lose

I know my worth is nothing

I know my soul is weak

I know my heart is cold

I know there is no hope for one who has lived in the darkness for too long

I know my fate is stale

I know my life is meaningless

Brake what’s already broken

Kick the shattered pieces around

Hurting me is the least you can do

So hit me harder

I dare you

-Anonymous1